Marathoning. Is that a word? If not, it should be.
Marathoning (v.) to live life at a frantic pace; to attempt to excel in daily work, overall career, home life, and parenthood while balancing one's sanity, a bag of groceries, and the checkbookI live this word. I do this every day. And I am exhausted. The pace of our last few months has left me weak-kneed. Bent over and heaving, sweat is dripping from my forehead. With only five weeks of the school year left to go, I can see the finish line, though I feel like I'm never going to make it.
Between holidays, birthday parties, baseball commitments, car repair, volunteer opportunities, out of town visitors, baby showers, haircuts, doctor's appointments, and (oh yeah!) work, grocery shopping, general home upkeep and child rearing, my head is spinning. Add to all of it the emotional roller coaster that is interviewing for administrative jobs during a time of economic crisis, and frankly, we all in the Bailey household are fried.
I don't write this expecting pity. After all, I'm not in this boat alone. Plenty of other moms do this every day. In fact, many of my own working mom friends are feeling the strain too. I can see it in their tired eyes and gray hairs (who has time for a cut
and color?) And I'm sure when they look at me, they see it as well.
So my apologies, to those whom in the last week or so I've just said, "No." No, I can't go out to lunch. No, I can't be on that committee. No, I can't stay late to supervise that project, and no, I can't make it to Bunco. It's not that I don't want to do these things. It's not that I don't feel guilty turning down your invitation. It's just that I want to be home. With my girls. And with Brian too. It's just that I've reached my breaking point, and I still have five and a half more weeks to go before I'm allowed to snap.
Only time will tell when this ol' twig will officially give out. But one thing's for sure. I need a vacation.